I'm in a bad way today. I don't want to do anything but lay in bed. no gaming, no TV, no human interaction. just lay. in. bed.

in overwhelmed with things I have to do, pay for, go to. and I want no part of any of it. I want it all to go away.

but I got up, ran errands, came to work. because I have to. shit won't get done otherwise, regardless of my mood. eventually this will pass and I got life to live on the other side. I'm battling little ugly nagging thoughts, and winning. I just got so much shit to do, I can let this down period get me. I will not lose.

rejoice with me in the light when I get there, stay with me...