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i am posting a blog post now, lol.

so, if you're a clever dick, which i know you are, you notice the title of this post is a play on the name of that spectacular, funk nasty group Mindless Self Indulgence. of which Shut Me Up is my favorite song.

yeah, drink that in...

but! the reason for today's post is to hip you, my babies, to my best friend's podcast on Soundcloud.com. You can check her out at https://soundcloud.com/lindsay-libby-choice-mescudi. She's funny and insightful and I hope to hear so much more from her!

What about you, Kits, what have you got going on during these long absences? well, i'll tell you... jack all. a little bit of the same really. Still drawing (i think i'm getting better?), still writing furiously (yeah, I know, I promised a blog exclusive story, and i WILL deliver... eventually), gearing up for the last con of my year, AFest, gaming (goodbye The Last of Us, you were a mind fuck from beginning to end. Hello Grand Theft Auto V!) and generally trying to keep one's head above water. i believe i have too many irons in the fire. but that guarantees is that i will never be bored. what it also almost guarantees is that i will never finish anything. but you know what they say, it's about the journey, not the destination.

just rambling at this point, so i'll call it a night!

this time it's for me...

so i've embarked on a new weight loss journey this past saturday. just on a whim really. in june, at A-Kon, i went to a panel about using macro nutrients to lose weight and weight train. they gave a lot of great links and the name of an app called MyFitnessPal. I downloaded it at the time and forgot about it.

on saturday, i marveled at how much crap i've downloaded to my phone and started cleaning house when i happened upon the app again. so i started fiddling with it, entering what i'd eaten, what exercise i did(n't) do that day. I was immediately impressed with the app over any other similar app i'd used so far. it has a much more comprehensive list of foods, the ability to scan bar codes so you don;t have to enter the details for new food manually. it also sets up weight loss goals based on your lifestyle. even syncs with other apps you may be using for tracking weight or exercise and gives daily weight loss estimate.

this lil doodad inspired me. i already wanted to shed some pounds  cosplay for next years con. but using MyFitnessPal makes it seem so easy. I have a set amount of calories, meet or go below that amount (but not too much below, because it will message you not to starve yourself ;-) ). i add in my exercise and water, and it does all the awesome calculations for me.

In addition to rediscovering MyFitnessPal, a group of my friends have a Facebook group encouraging each other to work out and eat better. It was like a godsend. the weekend i start using the app, my bestie posts a new challenge for the group.

yes. my muffin top is a source of constant sorrow for me. i can deal with the fat arms and legs. but to try to wear a cute top with the gut hanging over your jeans... it's just not the business. so i've dived into this whole-heartedly. i actually started before they group officially started :-P and DAMN can i feel it already. today was day five and while walking into work today, i could feel the change in the sides of my abs. 

i'm a fat girl, but i have pretty decent ab control (years of holding it in!). in addition i'm getting in no less than 30 mins of walking a day, five days a week.today i did about 35 mins, burning almost 250 cals.

i feel good. of course it's the same with all lifestyle changes. it's fun at beginning, but a week or two in, you could slap the unholy shit out of someone for some fricking fries from Burger King. but at the same time, i'm in no hurry to lose weight. i feel like it's going to happen, little by little. i do have a goal of 60lbs by january. and i'd like to able to plank everyday for five minutes (oh the pipe dream!) but I don't feel the need to crash diet to try to lose 100 lbs in a month. i'm happy to take it slow for the first time in my fat ass life.

i dunno why it's different this time, but i like it. hopefully this weight loss adventure will be more fodder for my blog. stay tuned!

what the fuck...

just realize I've born a hatred for guys, for they way the few I've interacted with have treated me. but I'll be damned if I'll be full throttle lesbian. what am I supposed to do now...

human romance eludes me. people are so superficial and conniving, ultimately just to fuck someone. maybe. people are genuinely in love out there, right? sex is great, but connection on a deeper level is possible. I wouldn't know personally. people only want to fuck me apparently. do I lack depth, personality? what did I do wrong, where did I go wrong?

not try I guess? always wanted a romance, but I'm not one to actively seek such things, not my nature. so since I don't throw my ass at anyone that looks at me twice, I get to be alone. and really, it's kind of a moot point. I already accepted that fact six months ago. looking forward to that anniversary, really. I suppose lil talks like this are just for my reaffirmation that I don't expect much out of life when it comes to love. which is good. I'll never be disappointed that way...

...

blogging on the go, I guess. about to head out to work. late. on purpose.

don't. even. care.

feeling real bluh today. a lil depressed I think, not sure about what though. bad sleep last night too. 

I want spaghetti... but I'm broke.

ugh, just.... uugghh...

feeling inadequate today

so we had a family dinner yesterday, and it came to light that my cousin got engaged saturday night. i am truly happy for her. the guy she's with is nice, treats her well, they make a cute couple. and then there was me. no one said anything (much to my surprise) but i know they were all thinking that i should be next. well, i'm not going to be. not that i don't want to. i too would love a down ass boo to make me his real ride or die wifey. but as i started this blog, i mentioned all the reasons that will not happen. but if it were to happen, i've realized the criteria my suitor would have to posses in order to woo me and win my hand. it's only three things, but they are crucial.

• must love/accept anime/manga. this is non-negotiable. if i'm re-watching my favorite anime for the 9 billionth time, not one disparaging word better be heard

• must love a gamer girl. all games, all platforms, all the time. i don't discriminate, but if you do, you can't be my boo.

• must love a cosplayer. i've discovered it and i love it. deal.

my criteria for a guy is all about me? well yeah, it appears so. of course there are the other things like intelligence, sense of humor, personality, the 'norm', so to speak. but these are kind of hardcore deal breakers too. see why i'm in no rush to find my mr? quite honestly, he'd have to be a male version of me to come even close. and that thought itself is little scary. but if you're out there, sir, and you stumble across this someday, look me up. i'll be around...

product placement!

had a busy mind last night. my nephew is in the hospital and a family friend passed away. i couldn't sleep, my head was too full. so I tried the nature sounds radio on pandora, but it was just like a bunch of New Age music. went to the App Store instead and found a great app for white noise and nature sounds: Relax Melodies. I got the free version, but it's still pretty cool.  you can mix and match the 40+ sounds, including two binaural wave sounds, to create your personal peaceful sound. it also has a timer and alarm to time out the app and/or wake you up. after testing a few sounds, I finally fell asleep to a woman humming a lullaby. sweet and simple. if you're need cool down sounds, something for meditation or relaxation, check out Relax Melodies 

 :-)

it's a thing...